Fri again...another week ending soon...finish my exam on thu...now...kinda of holiday..so late le...xiao zhu haven call mi yet...think he wun call mi le ba...everytime when he dun call...i'll go crazy...fears will always fill mi in...cos i fear losing him...i dun like the feeling of losing someone...it totally sux...feeling so sucky now...throwing my temper on anyone who's talking to mi now...i reali feel like blowing up now...there's alot of things going on in my heart...feel so xin ku now...haiz...I juz cant take it anymore...reali feeling lousy now...duno wat's wrong wif mi now...

Listening to Liang Jing Ru's Fly Away now...tis song...always bring mi back to the time when i first know xiao zhu...the first time we met...the first song which i heard playing from his PDA phone while on the way back home...i duno if being together wif xiao zhu is a mistake right from the start...we start unknowingly...he didnt even ask mi...unknowingly...we've been together for 4 month plus le...coming to 5 months in 11 days...started going out wif him wif no feeling at the beginning...didnt expect we will be together de...alot of things are reali unpredictable...wat the ending between us...? I reali duno...cant forseen the future...Haven go out to walk walk wif xiao zhu le...got almost 3 months le ba...ever since the last movie we caught...the first n the last midnight show we watched..."Shi Mian Mai Fu"...reali wana go out walk walk wif xiao zhu tml...but the chances seems so slim...cos he will always go out wif his fren de...mayb others will think that i'm grumbling...but if u were in my shoe...u will clearly understand the kind of feeling...we dun reali haf much memorable moments together...i duno if i'm asking too much...or am i being selfish...feel so much like crying out now...DumB Me!!!


love you

on Friday, October 08, 2004; 10:17 pm