Thu le...haven even start my o level exam preparation...juz got no mood...feel so empty...kinda feel so weak...

Haiz...Feel so weird...haven been contacting wif elf piglet for 4 days le...time seems to pass so slow...reali feels so empty...Where's Elf Piglet...??? Absence reali makes the heart fonder???...Think things will nv be the same again...Letting go is still the best decision for the both of us...not being fair by holding elf piglet back n let him miss the opportunity to meet better gals...though it's a reali painful decision...there is'nt any other way out...I cant be greedy to own two things at the same time...cant go on hurting elf piglet...Leave it to fate ba...if he's meant to be mine...it will be...Lotsa of words to tell elf piglet...Lotsa thoughts to share wif him...but that will nv happen again le...feels so hurt everytime when i thought abt tis matter...the kinda of pain in the heart...canot be explained...A forever goodbye...??? I duno...I fear that it will be one...

I noe God is being fair to everyone...and alreadi being kind enough to mi...Gave mi a good life...a good family...a very best friend...a bunch of good friends...a good boyfriend...a lighted up path for mi to walk through...wat more can i still ask for?

*Elf piglet...the sweet memories we haf will always be kept by mi...the piglet u drew for mi will always be wif mi...the piglet u gave mi will always be by my side...Everything of u will be in my heart...nv be taken away...*




love you

on Thursday, October 21, 2004; 1:12 pm