it's been 1 month plus since we got together so closely. he knows wat i'm thinking now and how i feel abt many stuff. he knows i'm confused so he didnt press mi for any answer or ask for any commitment from mi. he knows i cant promise and compromise him alot of things but he didnt mind at all. he continued to shower mi with lots of attention and care. filling my life with all that i need. from emotion to mental to material stuff. but there are so many obstacles to overcome if we get together. my family and "number 9". age never becomes a problem to mi but my family will mind. i know we wun get ahead far but at least i'm happier now. cos someone appreciated mi more. someone cherished mi more. someone is willing to protect mi more. someone likes mi more than i like him more.


on the other hand, i duno how to account to the other person in my life. 3 yrs of relationship... am i the one at fault all along? i really did my very best. but i dun feel apprecaited at all. i dun feel cherished at all. but right now at this moment at this time, it's my fault. i have done things which i shouldnt have. i let my feelings out for another person. slowly, i'm taking away everything that had been deposited on you. i really dun wana hurt u. but i duno how to prevent that. i know leaving you will hurt you deeply. and i dun wish to tell you the true facts for leaving you. i can only tell you that i'm sorry and i'm deeply and truly sorry for all i've done.


i've been dragging...cos i duno what to do. i really wana start a new life.


love you

on Thursday, August 09, 2007; 2:15 pm