it juz hurt mi so much to say all those things to you. having to end the 3 yrs plus relationship with you might be the biggest mistake or regret but i simply cannot live with all these nonsense anymore. all the things that you have done simply hurt mi too much. wounds got onto mi again juz when the old wounds begin to heal. not putting enough trust in you all along was a wise choice. how much i've put in, u should noe. i'm simply too tired. my heart died down on mi and you. in fact, everything should have ended long ago, but i simply keep on dragging on to it. trying to convince myself that i should juz dun bother so much abt it. i chose to be ignorant. and i suppose it could have been the biggest mistake from there. i may be young but i'm not blind or stupid. i noe what's going on around and i know what's happening behind mi as well. whatever you promise, i know one fine day it will be an empty promise again. u said u will be there but i know u nv will. how many of the times do u actually noe i'm upset? how much do u know what's going inside mi? my past do hinder mi and it always will. i always thot i found someone who can be a part of mi but i think i'm wrong. no one else will ever understand the deep side of mi. being able to hold on for so long, i'm proud of myself. u were the one that made mi hold on till now. i nv found my life as meaningful as these past 3 yrs. wat i really needed, no one will be able to give it to mi. much of the times, i know many ppl are juz taking mi for granted. i know that. i feel that. living on is so hard. it's even harder when ur past are still living on with u. i'm really really so tired of all things. i know i can nv be happy cos i'm nv contented. i'm so sorry if i've hurt u but of all, u hurted mi the most. my wish nv came true...


love you

on Wednesday, October 03, 2007; 1:24 am