it's exactly 1 yr since 1 blogged. many things changed. for a quick update.... R and mi are no longer as close as before. i couldnt remember wat really happened that lead us to non talking situation. but he still do contact mi, give mi presents for xmas and birthday. eventually, i still went back to piggy but in the end, things didnt really work out for us as well. after the 1st break which is like 1 yr ago ard tis period, i noe i could no longer love him the way i used to. it was a dragging r/s. we started to have alot of conflicts and i would flare at him at the slightest thing. i noe he really tried his best to change after the 1st breakup but everything was juz too late. i still loved him at that point but it juz started to fade away slowly. during that period, clarence was in the picture as well.dumb mi. i nv expected him to like mi at all. i thot calling mi was normal like how we used to talk back in poly days. we spend V day together in the day. i didnt really wana go but he told mi he had already applied for leave. he bought mi a necklace from SK and flowers. Unfortunately, i ended up hurting him as well. i should have told him everything right from the start. but at that point, everything juz fall onto mi. everything happened so fast during that period of time. though valentine day with piggy wasnt as grand as before, we still managed to spend abit of time together. sad to say, that was the last time we spend an occasion together. den it was on tis day when i went for council chalet during that unfortunate february, i met someone else who is making a difference to mi life nw.

i was a game master with mel for the initation day for the new councilors. our stop was at tis pavilion and there comes the tired and lazy photographer of the student council. haha. back den, i didn't really noe tis person. all i noe was, i juz saw him the day before the chalet and he juz walked past mi without saying "Hi" cos we still didnt noe each other at that point of time. we took photo together at the pavilion. everything started that night when we were playing games in the room. after most people were asleep, we went to watch sunrise together. that was when he noe i had a bf at the point of time. but he told mi he can wait for mi to settle everything. we went home together after the chalet. everything was like being done in discreet. haha. that night we chatted on the phone and piggy was at my hse doing baked potatoes for mi. i guessed he noe something wasnt wrong. he kept coming to my room to see wat i was doing. sadly, the 3 yrs plus r/s ended that night. after the break up, there was still some emotional struggle.

following the week, baby and i juz couldnt help it but to keep on seeing each other. we met for dinner on a wed, went sentosa on sat. that sat, he declared everything. everything that i should noe. but some facts i juz couldnt accept it at the point of time. i appeared ok to him but deep down inside, i was really afraid of making the wrong decision. i told him that we should have a cool down period of a week before we continue anything from there. however, the feeling in mi was too much for mi to contain. i couldnt help it but to sms him the next night, telling him how i really felt for the day and he wasn't feeling as good as mi for the day too. both of us didnt really sleep well for the night, the next morning, we woke up early and got everything settled. everything started to fall nicely into place from the day onwards. there was many obstacles to overcome but i was glad he had always been there for mi. it took mi quite a while to accept some facts as well. it was a love at first sight. but i hope things will work out well for us. there are ups and down for us but we faced everything together. pray and wish for the best of us.